I have been crying these few days .
want to call me cry baby ? sure ago ahead.
but think before you call me one.
whats the reason i cry ? for fun ?
seek attention ? theres reason why i have
been crying these few days.
dont blame pms. dont say that i dont know how to
control my emotions. dont say that im pampered.

i was crying when dad entered my room
he asked me to talk to him .
in my heart " i have been crying for four
days straight and now
then you want to talk to me ? "

blaaablaaa blaaa.....

"youre making your life miserable this way"
that is what my dad said.

to dad :

miserable ? my life is full of misery dad .
let me repeat FULL. i dont see the point
of me having a good time of life because i
know i will end up crying. dad , remember
the last time we talked heart to heart ?
you promised me that i will get freedom ?
you promised me that you would understand
me better ? where is that promise ?
are you still holding on to your words ?
freedom ? your giving me unreasonable curfew.
since sister is busy working i cant go out
because i have to take care of my brother.
stop saying you understand me when you really dont.
you really dont dad. you dont know how i suffer.
you dont know why i suffer. stop saying you
are proud of me when you really dont. how
can you be proud of me when you have not seen my
report book ? & dont say you have seen my report book .
you said that you will try to be fair .
you said that you will try to be a type of father that
i want. i dont want you to compare me with other people.
i dont want you to expect me to be the best because
all i can do is do my best . i need your support & motivation
dad. reward. mum bought kak long stuff. but neither mum nor you
get me something as a reward. nothing much i want to ask from
you dad. all i asked is you to hold on to your words.
"im so proud of you" that is just a clishe. i know .


thank you kak meera.
i really hope you understand me
& know how i feel . i love you
vv much !

to people who call me a cry baby /
who ask me to stop crying :
WHATEVER